The Quest

I am avoiding the inevitable, the vast and great unknown, the void. I have worked on the periphery, I have clapped and cheered even, but to stand in front, no, it is not for me. That is what I have convinced myself to believe, because it scares me, as it should. We all have something that we are trying to do, even if that something is pure survival. I realize that I need to partake in what compels me to create, to act, to speak, and to do it in the arena that I am afraid to walk out onto.

We are all compelled by various aspects of our existence, for me, one of those aspects takes on different forms and I want to understand and venture towards it. It takes presence in us like a breath, and it moves into our lungs and energizes our cells and it is one of the greatest forces in our lives—our sexuality. My experience in delving into this raises more questions than answers, as do most explorations. We tend to think we will have the answer, when we really are just broadening our vision of the landscape so that we see more, not necessarily that we see “it”. Something intangible can’t be held like a stone, and it never will, so why do we think it is something that simple?

I explore this in my art and writings, and my goal is to share my thoughts on the nuances of sexuality and existence through this blog.